Babes, mom. I gotta look cool.
i kneel in a pew and plead with god/ i’ve cradled death in my hands/ i knew his shudder before he entered/ his will stronger than god’s demands
i kneeled until i could collapse/ i offered up all but my judgement day/ death deflates you until you can’t stand/ so i stay kneeling with nothing more to say
instead i pray there’s a place in the dark/ i’d like to see them all again/ the precious are too undeserving of this life/ threatened with one month until their end
hello to those who sit in the dark/ those who blink up at the ceiling/ those who fumble next to them/ those searching for all that the dark is concealing
you’re there now and i’m there later/ i’m there before and you’re floating around/ we dance and we stumble/ and embrace the night that surrounds
Exhalation
Inhalation
If only you’ve seen
what I’ve seen
when i close
my eyes
the swipes of nightmares
of red streaks soaking
down the wall
and seeping
into the mirror
that i stand before
i look across the dark slate
and see my reflection
staring back
with a bruised soul
and realize
the potential
to fail
and feel the pain
and welcome the pain
Cosmo Susie 