Tag: fall

my favorite time of the year

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The weather turns and the page counts run high/ nestled in my room, a candle drips/ books rustle, countless chapters stacking up/ my window shows the evidence of fall as summer eclipses

the melodies slow down to a soft sway/ mornings cool and evenings come soon/ colds run rampant as the weather turns/ old reruns and dogeared books under the moon

the smell of ink and the burn of hot tea/ an old sweater with holes you meant to fix/ a bed cozied in the corner of your room/ the soft yellow haze of a fall full of treats and tricks

happy fall, love

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half a decade has passed since i pined for you/ i whispered your name into my pillow case/ i envied your friends who knew you like i never did/ learning to love you made me forget all grace

i loved you from afar until you let me love you up close/ i wake up mingled in your smell and in your sheets/ you wake up and kiss my forehead each day/ each day, month, and year with you goes by in a blink

the delusions of fall

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i’ve never known fall to be mine/ fall is a blur of hot wind and candle wax/ it’s textbook paper cuts and the courtyards to class/ fall is a copper figure with crispy syntax

fall has always been a trick to me/ i layer up just to feel the sweltering sun/ it’s a melting pot of flannels and sweat/ from green to red but the paint still runs

fall is a lie we all live to love/ we cherish every autumn equinox to come/ pumpkin patches and pies just for them to rot/ as we wait for the depression to make us numb

my last and final words

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i’ve finally started forgetting you/ yet i still want to scream everything i felt/ yell until my throat runs utterly dry/ until my vocal chords start to melt

i’ve burned every picture on my wall/ i’ve written you so many letters to send/ yet i won’t let you try to defend this/ i ripped those words to shreds

all of my paper is filled to the brim/ i’ve called you so many names/ i spelt out every wrong you ever did/ and yet you still won’t take any blame

one phone call and i could be satisfied/ i could cry out all your faults to a tea/ but let you would win at everything?/ god forbid the person to fix you is me

i can’t hate you more than anything/ i won’t give you that ability/ i love so much more in this world/ and i hate you but oh so differently

colorful

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They waved me on over

But we hadn’t looked in months

Not with our eyes connected

But I still lunged at once

We talked and talked

And we laughed and smiled

I was floating the whole day long

Feeling like a little child

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Here is your daily reminder

Your smile is beautiful

And my fingers ache for your hair

Will you stay a while?

I don’t mean to stare

Or at least for you to catch me

And I get so nervous talking

But I wonder about a ‘we’

I listen to music

And my mind plugs you in

Everything reminds me of you

Where have you been?

down, down i fall

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here i sit/ in the solid dark/ the solids of solitude/with contrast ever so stark

blink once/ he holds your hand/ blink twice/ he drops you from land

down, down i fall/ to the pits of hell/ the flesh that flames engulf/ the place where shadows dwell

blink once/ fresh as flowers/ blink twice/ her smell you wish to devour

down, down i fall/ for i stop before i lust/ the intangible i desire/ but to hold back is a must

blink once/ she’s mine/ blink twice/ you lose all divine

down, down i fall/ between the blinks/ as the bible rots/ as all standard shrinks