Tag: friday

a summer of friends

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a summer of sand clinging to your legs/ a new friendship to keep you company/ experimental recipes and new hobbies to be found/ a summer of long lost and well spent money

when you close your eyes, who do you picture?/ i see people i love, people i don’t know/ a night under a fort of blankets/ a day in the rain with the friends i chose

i send letters in the mail to those I miss/ a collection of scraps and memories from the best of days/ Happiness is not fleeting, but a moment to recall on/ a series of long car rides and sitting among waves

a summer i will miss and long for when it passes/ friendships that will stay even when the weather turns/ trading a day of sunshine for a night by the fire/ i wonder how i’ve deserved such a world

moments you never forget

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a girl in middle school showed me her wrists/ the day she told me it was all my fault/ i’ll never forget how i felt there standing/ like i was the razor who did the assault

i called an old friend a year after she moved/ it’s been a while, how has everything been?/ she sent me a photo and all i saw was blood/ i could hardly discern her carved out skin

in high school i had a best friend of my own/ one month it progressed from vomit to scissors/ i’ll never erase that damn video call/ how had i missed all of her triggers?

am i the problem in all of my friends?/ what drives them to hurt so much so hard?/ am i the razor they never expected?/ since when have i been the fated glass shard?

these are moments in your life you never forget/ moments you rethink in the quietest of spaces/ moments you rethink when it’s so loud you could drown/ these are moments your memory never replaces

reminiscing

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your bedroom is no longer yours/ it belongs to your childhood/ the photos on the wall are a past you/ along with the friends whose laughs were so good

all your anger has finally faded/ it’s a refreshing kind of peace/ old enemies are now a story to tell/ that part of life has already begun to cease

every promise made has since been forgotten/ either faithfully made or fully broken/ and yet you can’t seem to care or remember/ instead, you collect them all like a token

it’s well past midnight tonight/ i’m sitting criss-cross on my carpet once again/ everything has a tint of nostalgia around me/ i can finally smile at all the memories from then

graduation

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gowns on, caps off/ our tassels fly through the air/ i look around and smile/ at this moment we share

forever i will remember/ looking back in math class/ and laughing with my friends/ just to look out at the grass

there i’d see the lunch tables/ filled to the brim/ students roam the courtyard/ where we all learned to swim

because in this school of fish/ we were once all minnows/ together we grew/ and now, we dress in stoles

lifeless

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i stand on the brink of this life/ either floating or falling/ i step closer to the edge/ i need to stop stalling

not everything is mine/ even as i window shop/ for a new life to enjoy/ as mine’s nearing to the final stop

i walk by the glass of the stores/ and yearn the possibility/ yet i see my reflection/ a reminder of my captivity

my fingers linger along each front/ though i never open a door/ for my sake or theirs i remain/ lifeless at my core

well

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Here I am, stranded

I float down from a loose string

That once used to be a tether

A pull that only you could bring

I search for walls around me

To steady my spiraling emotions

My feet tap the air as I drop

No floor to ground this motion

The darkness seeps on in

You’ve disappeared all over again

This well is not a free space

But my skull confines me in

down down down

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I walked along

The roots

Of life

Dandy and slow and whimsical too

I tripped over them all

On my very last step

And fell on down

Down

down

down

There I go

I’m falling and cannot stop

I’m flailing and drowning

Where are my wings

I am no longer flying

You can take me alive

But no one can suffocate forever

My fingers

slip

from 

yours.

There I go

I’ll see you later, my friend

In my next

    life.

again

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is this redemption?/ am i free again?/ i can love him without worry/ it’s been a while since then

can we be us once more?/ is this my last chance?/ i thought i had lost him/ until he gave me another glance

i can really smile now?/ it’s that simple?/ i don’t deserve this/ but to trade, would be sinful

it’s summer y’all :)

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the summer is here/ the summer of a thousand things/ the summer of love/ the summer of tethers and strings

the rain doesn’t skip a beat/ the thunder rolls on in/ the skies fill with grey/ and lets the sun go for a swim

the gap between the clouds come/ and it breaks apart the storms/ the floods all halt/ and towards the ground, bugs swarm

the summer is here/ and i step outside/ the smell of grass and rain greet me/ the season where all senses collide