Babes, mom. I gotta look cool.
flowers in my hair, i dance in the sand/ the waves crash over, on my feet/ you smile at me in the face of the sun/ your hands twirl me, cutting through the beams
god gave me you, my love/ soft curls to wake up to each morning/ hands larger than mine rest on my waist/ under the blankets, the world is roaring
you’re a safe haven of mine/ i find rest solely in you alone/ stardust forever, we must be fate/ burn out is for those who’ve never flown
every time we speak i breath easy/ every time we speak i lose my breath/ only god knows what lure you hold/ but we’re entwined together until death
i miss you like i miss myself/ i cross a bridge and see you by my side/ you hover like my own guardian angel/ you don’t know it but you’re still my guide
i don’t know if i believe in destined stars/ but if i did you’d be the brightest/ just so i can look up to always find you there/ even through the loud and especially through the quiet
if god isn’t real then how did i find you?/ you know my best and you know my worst/ he gave me a miracle i struggle to confront/ give me time, i’m scared to go in reverse
we’re in the same void of space i can feel it/ you’re not here but you’re next to me/ we’re having a discussion but only we can hear it/ how does this keep happening, when will we be free
we go through the motions of friendship but it’s less and yet more/ we keep hitting the same wall over and over/ we break it down and it builds itself back up/ each brick is cemented by yet another lover
you’re everywhere and nowhere, just a figment/ but your presence stands firm in my life/ i tumble through the motions just to always end with you/ each awakening ends with one of us pointing a knife
just when we’re through you come back to haunt me/ but it’s a horror that comes with its thrills/ it’s addicting and i’m a willing consumer/ it’s the withdrawal that stops me from another refill
i’ve always known where i stood/ i’ve always just lived and just been/ but who am i now?/ who am i now with all of this sin
i could speak in hymnals and betrayals/ i could write with grace and reverence/ i destroy all my bibles and all of my words/ to rid myself of this religious evidence
i used to sit in the pews each sunday/ i used to pray even through my doubt/ but no one is answering/ my prayers alone feed into this drought
i asked for you and you never knew/ i asked for a friend but did i receive?/ i go back each week just to kneel/ i close my eyes and wish to believe
i am the persona of damnation/ and yet i look for a guardian angel/ is that who you are to me now?/ will you be my salvation?
who am i now to you/ in all of the pillars of hell?/ do i reside there for you/ or am i up where the clouds swell?
dear god i wish now/ why am i here and where are you/ dear god i used to believe/ but i grew up like you told me to
here i sit/ in the solid dark/ the solids of solitude/with contrast ever so stark
blink once/ he holds your hand/ blink twice/ he drops you from land
down, down i fall/ to the pits of hell/ the flesh that flames engulf/ the place where shadows dwell
blink once/ fresh as flowers/ blink twice/ her smell you wish to devour
down, down i fall/ for i stop before i lust/ the intangible i desire/ but to hold back is a must
blink once/ she’s mine/ blink twice/ you lose all divine
down, down i fall/ between the blinks/ as the bible rots/ as all standard shrinks
Cosmo Susie 