Babes, mom. I gotta look cool.
romanticize holding hands and sleeping over/ that’s reserved for you and you alone/ no nonsense over the thought of others/ you and i will carve our names into stone
i’d like to forget everybody else/ the entire world can disappear/ and i couldn’t blink twice or turn away/ i’d like to let them all be in fear
we won’t give two fucks about anyone/ after all, we’re in too deep/ and there’s no way out but forward/ so we might as well go down in a leap
everything is all so green/ i paint the world in various shades/ the hues bounce around the atmosphere/ from the oak trees to the grass blades
the pages in my book flip/ the wind shuffles them around/ the aroma flits up to my nose/ from where i lay on the ground
my steeping tea cools in the air/ the steam is hit by the crisp sky/ i imagine a kite drifting above/ and read on to the next line
You are all mine/ the flowers and the bees/ the petals and the stripes/ in the dirt and in the trees
You are all mine/ I’m tired of keeping track/ of everybody who stares/ for now, they face my back
You are all mine/ I need you to reel me in/ to pull me up from the water/ so i can stop drowning
They waved me on over
But we hadn’t looked in months
Not with our eyes connected
But I still lunged at once
We talked and talked
And we laughed and smiled
I was floating the whole day long
Feeling like a little child
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Here is your daily reminder
Your smile is beautiful
And my fingers ache for your hair
Will you stay a while?
I don’t mean to stare
Or at least for you to catch me
And I get so nervous talking
But I wonder about a ‘we’
I listen to music
And my mind plugs you in
Everything reminds me of you
Where have you been?
you elate me up and up/ i hit the clouds and float on through/ pass the atmosphere’s last layer/ where the stars meet the blue
i’m dancing on the moon, my darling/ skipping over each and every crater/ spinning up and around saturn’s rings/ and continuing on to jupiter later
the galaxy spins round and round/ and the cosmos try to match my pace/ but i’m on top of the world, baby/ it’s our own space race
is this redemption?/ am i free again?/ i can love him without worry/ it’s been a while since then
can we be us once more?/ is this my last chance?/ i thought i had lost him/ until he gave me another glance
i can really smile now?/ it’s that simple?/ i don’t deserve this/ but to trade, would be sinful
i know you’re reading this/ because you told me so/ i hope you get my letter soon/ and things will not be so cold
i like sitting in your car/ even though it can be hard/ i like sitting next to you/ even when our relationship is in shards
you make me happy/ and i know we aren’t holding hands/ but i like that too/ though you may not understand
Stagnant we remain throughout the summer/ we blush and lean together/ yet it’s not our old solid connection/ New ties ensure we remember
We sound like a taylor swift song/ the ones that end sans another/ a broken record that begins each call/ every night and one more note stutters
Until we update our outdated machine/ still missing the worn, loved dents and scratches/ but grants us a tune-up/ to create our new song with patches
I miss you when the lights shut off/ and I miss you when I click off my phone/ I miss you every time we hang up/ and I miss you now that I’m all alone
I know I was who gave up/ and I know I said goodbye to us/ I know I am the one to blame/ and I know I turned us to dust
Here I am in my room/ and here I am completely cornered/ Here I am saying I’m sorry/ and here I am not moving forward
I miss you every day/ and I know I broke us both/ Here I am with no way back/ and all because I broke our oath
click and clack/ tip and tap/ all day, all night/ always another lap
love and loss/whispers and screams/ around we go/ all nightmares and dreams
But to you/ or to me/ or to us/ or to what we used to be?
Yeah, this pretty much sucks and I’m putting this together in two minutes. Yeah, I keep droning on about love and honestly? I have no clue what it means. I know when I love someone, but to love and to be in love are two completely different things, as I’ve come to realize. And god, to love and to like are polar opposites. Like gives a possibility of love, but no guarantee. It can change in a week. But to love? That doesn’t mean you like them, at least not necessarily actively as a crush where you want to pursue them. However, it does mean that you would be willing to give up a lot just to talk to the person or to sit with them in silence and it’s comfortable or to risk all consequences just to keep that connection.
