numbness of people

i’m surrounded by people but none of them friends/ they talk and i answer but it’s just a trade/ they swap stories but i’m on the outside/ i sit through parties wondering why i stayed

i’m surrounded by social interactions i’ve never understood/ i’m surrounded by smiles and laughs i can’t replicate/ i’m exhausted and i’m drowsy and i just can’t think/ i’m left behind as the conversations accelerate

i hate to be the cliche that’s dead on the inside/ i know i’m alive, i just can’t feel anything/ numbness has never been strange to me/ i close my eyes and let everyone’s words ring

summer nights

summer nights and thick air/ no fireflies, but mosquitoes bite/ yet we kiss away any welts/ along with the thought of morning lights

our hair reflects off the fire/ as mine swings around my shoulders/ our cups sloshing from laughter/ moments couldn’t be any golder

to think august has come/ and crossed the horizon/ i know soon the future will too/ the thought make our chests tighten

for now, it’s you and me/ the ease of summer may fade/ but let’s cherish the moonlight now/ for we are stardust and forever made