moments you never forget

a girl in middle school showed me her wrists/ the day she told me it was all my fault/ i’ll never forget how i felt there standing/ like i was the razor who did the assault

i called an old friend a year after she moved/ it’s been a while, how has everything been?/ she sent me a photo and all i saw was blood/ i could hardly discern her carved out skin

in high school i had a best friend of my own/ one month it progressed from vomit to scissors/ i’ll never erase that damn video call/ how had i missed all of her triggers?

am i the problem in all of my friends?/ what drives them to hurt so much so hard?/ am i the razor they never expected?/ since when have i been the fated glass shard?

these are moments in your life you never forget/ moments you rethink in the quietest of spaces/ moments you rethink when it’s so loud you could drown/ these are moments your memory never replaces

graduation

gowns on, caps off/ our tassels fly through the air/ i look around and smile/ at this moment we share

forever i will remember/ looking back in math class/ and laughing with my friends/ just to look out at the grass

there i’d see the lunch tables/ filled to the brim/ students roam the courtyard/ where we all learned to swim

because in this school of fish/ we were once all minnows/ together we grew/ and now, we dress in stoles