Tag: thursday

lonely friendships

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what are friendships if not uneven?/ why are the closest always the furthest away?/ the simplicity of connection is overruled for greed/ you want to leave, so i beg you to stay

loneliness is being the third person there/ it’s sitting alone, surrounded by people/ second-guessing your role in the conversation/ telling yourself the quiet is more peaceful

i offer too much that i don’t want to give away/ i extend my hand for the sake of niceties/ you take it too far and won’t let me go/ i make myself bitter in an attempt to please

i have no tangible evidence for any of this/ i’m perfect on paper, i’m well aware/ i have it all, what else could i need?/ but when i look around, there’s no one else there

flying with you, faith in the sun

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flowers in my hair, i dance in the sand/ the waves crash over, on my feet/ you smile at me in the face of the sun/ your hands twirl me, cutting through the beams

god gave me you, my love/ soft curls to wake up to each morning/ hands larger than mine rest on my waist/ under the blankets, the world is roaring

you’re a safe haven of mine/ i find rest solely in you alone/ stardust forever, we must be fate/ burn out is for those who’ve never flown

hey, you:)

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in a world of people, i’ve found you/ a curly haired-boy with a tan you deny/ in a world of people, i always come back to you/a curly-haired boy with a love we define

i love you so from here and past arkansas/ i could write and write and there’d never be too many words/ you’re worth so much more than a simple poem/ it’s you and me until we’re buried beneath this earth

we’ve seen the river, the seas, and the mountains/ we’ve seen the beaches and the stars/ and yet my favorite place remains by your side/ i’m sided with fate and your my lucky tarot card

thank you, god.

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every time we speak i breath easy/ every time we speak i lose my breath/ only god knows what lure you hold/ but we’re entwined together until death

i miss you like i miss myself/ i cross a bridge and see you by my side/ you hover like my own guardian angel/ you don’t know it but you’re still my guide

i don’t know if i believe in destined stars/ but if i did you’d be the brightest/ just so i can look up to always find you there/ even through the loud and especially through the quiet

if god isn’t real then how did i find you?/ you know my best and you know my worst/ he gave me a miracle i struggle to confront/ give me time, i’m scared to go in reverse

not by choice

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the things we do to tell ourselves we’re alright/ i force myself through the daily motions of life/ i make lunch, do my laundry, and wash the dishes/ take a breath between each spoon, fork, and knife

i do things in three to make it easier on me/ turn on the water, pump the soap, wash my hands/ turn on the car, put it into drive, press the gas/ turn off the lights, get into bed, cancel all my plans

i understand why my friends are never around/ i understand why they stop calling, texting/ i’m a homebody, but not by choice/ i try to get up and find each day dizzying

is this a mood swing or a state of mind?/ i stare at myself in the mirror too long/ i sit in my car and pretend i haven’t arrived/ i just need someone to convince me i belong

i sit on the floor in my room with the blinds shut/ i sit behind a screen and type out each and every thought/ everything i can’t tell to those around me/ there’s nothing worse than getting caught

i close my eyes and let the day drift away/ i wake up in time to shower before dinner/ hot scalding water that i hope will wash it all away/ i’m only awake when the sky gets dimmer

two queens

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two queens sleep side by side/ one is orange, one is black/ sound asleep curled in together/ purring on as their dreams stack

angels hum from near their whiskers/ the softest fur sweetly entangled/ warmth emanates from their fur/ their tails laid out and tangled

they sleep until the sun has faded/ until the candle has burned low/ they stretch and they yawn/ as they wake under the moon’s glow

the space race

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you elate me up and up/ i hit the clouds and float on through/ pass the atmosphere’s last layer/ where the stars meet the blue

i’m dancing on the moon, my darling/ skipping over each and every crater/ spinning up and around saturn’s rings/ and continuing on to jupiter later

the galaxy spins round and round/ and the cosmos try to match my pace/ but i’m on top of the world, baby/ it’s our own space race