Tag: tuesday

this temper of mine

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i’m painfully truthful when i need to shut up/ i run my mouth and my temper keeps the pace/ i slam doors when i’m mad, but i always have/ anger is an old friend of mine, i’ve never known grace

i drive to calm myself yet yearn to veer right/ into the ditch, up and over/ i back peddle to apologize and make things worse/ what can i say, i’m not a good driver

anger for you, anger at me/ it all bleeds together, one and the same/ i wait to see when you finally tire/ i’m aware i’m the one to blame

my nails are wrangled and chewed/ fists in my hair, threatening to rip it all out/ breathe for a second but i can’t seem to find the air/ i suffocate, choke on my own account

don’t you see, i’m not a nice person/ i’m reminded every time i hear a door close/ i broke the cross on my wall when i was nine/ i’m consistent and everybody knows

host no more

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you text and forget i’m a human being too/ you barely text and forget i’m here/ it’s a back and forth i wish for no more/ i’m telling you this and laying myself bare

i cannot proceed in this life of mine/ i put it all before me without thought/ i’d put you behind me if it meant freedom/ i’d do it all if i wasn’t afraid of being caught

you’re present but never around/ you hide me and are afraid to be seen/ i’ve found you and i figured it out/ i’ve seen through your precious machine

you choose to read but never write/ you’ve become a whisper of a ghost/ you come around when it’s convenient/ but i’m just too tired to play host

flowers, bees, trees, water

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You are all mine/ the flowers and the bees/ the petals and the stripes/ in the dirt and in the trees

You are all mine/ I’m tired of keeping track/ of everybody who stares/ for now, they face my back

You are all mine/ I need you to reel me in/ to pull me up from the water/ so i can stop drowning

colorful

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They waved me on over

But we hadn’t looked in months

Not with our eyes connected

But I still lunged at once

We talked and talked

And we laughed and smiled

I was floating the whole day long

Feeling like a little child

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Here is your daily reminder

Your smile is beautiful

And my fingers ache for your hair

Will you stay a while?

I don’t mean to stare

Or at least for you to catch me

And I get so nervous talking

But I wonder about a ‘we’

I listen to music

And my mind plugs you in

Everything reminds me of you

Where have you been?