Babes, mom. I gotta look cool.
I said I was done burning your things/ But that was until I found a book/ The orange and pink cover is yours/ I’ve just given it a blackened new look
I really hope you don’t mind/ You can have it back if you want/ It was left behind in my room/ Staring at me as if to taunt
There were some minor annotations/ In chapters I’d rather not discuss/ I can send you the address/ Before I turn the rest of it to dust
your bedroom is no longer yours/ it belongs to your childhood/ the photos on the wall are a past you/ along with the friends whose laughs were so good
all your anger has finally faded/ it’s a refreshing kind of peace/ old enemies are now a story to tell/ that part of life has already begun to cease
every promise made has since been forgotten/ either faithfully made or fully broken/ and yet you can’t seem to care or remember/ instead, you collect them all like a token
it’s well past midnight tonight/ i’m sitting criss-cross on my carpet once again/ everything has a tint of nostalgia around me/ i can finally smile at all the memories from then
you are the slope of your nose, darling/ you are the wave of your hair/ you are the curve of your hips/ you are the physical appearances you bare
and yet, you are the IQ of your mind/ you are the quirks of your thoughts/ you are the ups and downs in a day/ you, my dear, are more than a series of snapshots
I wish for the blemishes amidst perfections/ I wish for your touch, it’s much kinder/ you are everything and never nothing/ my love, let me be your reminder
i’ve finally started forgetting you/ yet i still want to scream everything i felt/ yell until my throat runs utterly dry/ until my vocal chords start to melt
i’ve burned every picture on my wall/ i’ve written you so many letters to send/ yet i won’t let you try to defend this/ i ripped those words to shreds
all of my paper is filled to the brim/ i’ve called you so many names/ i spelt out every wrong you ever did/ and yet you still won’t take any blame
one phone call and i could be satisfied/ i could cry out all your faults to a tea/ but let you would win at everything?/ god forbid the person to fix you is me
i can’t hate you more than anything/ i won’t give you that ability/ i love so much more in this world/ and i hate you but oh so differently
i cut my measuring tape/ i smash the scale’s screen/ i drill through the mirror/ i need to fucking scream
these roads are all new/ patterns, traffic, and lights/ everything blinks and whizzes/ i’m racing past signs
everything here is a blur/ i squeeze my eyes shut/ and just hope to breathe/ yet anxiety claws my gut
summer nights and thick air/ no fireflies, but mosquitoes bite/ yet we kiss away any welts/ along with the thought of morning lights
our hair reflects off the fire/ as mine swings around my shoulders/ our cups sloshing from laughter/ moments couldn’t be any golder
to think august has come/ and crossed the horizon/ i know soon the future will too/ the thought make our chests tighten
for now, it’s you and me/ the ease of summer may fade/ but let’s cherish the moonlight now/ for we are stardust and forever made
we’re living a breathing novel/ unexpected cliffhangers/ led by the next chapter/ where we meet new strangers
inevitably the dire question/ of when will it all just end/ and yet we hope for more stories/ and ask for a series our dreams penned
in this life we have authored/ each of us flips through pages/ and burn through all the bad ones/ as well as dog-ear the best ages
by the end of mine, i flip back/ onto the dedication/ i think to the earth and its people/ and thank them for their navigation
gowns on, caps off/ our tassels fly through the air/ i look around and smile/ at this moment we share
forever i will remember/ looking back in math class/ and laughing with my friends/ just to look out at the grass
there i’d see the lunch tables/ filled to the brim/ students roam the courtyard/ where we all learned to swim
because in this school of fish/ we were once all minnows/ together we grew/ and now, we dress in stoles
romanticize holding hands and sleeping over/ that’s reserved for you and you alone/ no nonsense over the thought of others/ you and i will carve our names into stone
i’d like to forget everybody else/ the entire world can disappear/ and i couldn’t blink twice or turn away/ i’d like to let them all be in fear
we won’t give two fucks about anyone/ after all, we’re in too deep/ and there’s no way out but forward/ so we might as well go down in a leap
everything is all so green/ i paint the world in various shades/ the hues bounce around the atmosphere/ from the oak trees to the grass blades
the pages in my book flip/ the wind shuffles them around/ the aroma flits up to my nose/ from where i lay on the ground
my steeping tea cools in the air/ the steam is hit by the crisp sky/ i imagine a kite drifting above/ and read on to the next line
Cosmo Susie 